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[Feb. 6th, 2010|05:49 pm] |
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i finally mustered enough determination to clear my clutter today. my bedroom's an entire mess, other than the fact that the walls are pink im sure no one would believe it's a girl's bedroom wahaha. alright i admit that i havent cleared my wardrobe but AHA thats bcuz im going shopping tmr so i should clear it today (excuses).
well, what is important is not my procrastination in organising my clothes but the items i found hidden in my drawers. letters, postcards, gifts, stickers, photographs, diaries. i started flipping through my numerous handwritten diaries rapidly, curious to know if what kind of person i was 3 years ago, 4 years ago. the oldest diary dated back to secondary two days. when my life still revolved around Band and Bball, and the occasional cramming/mugging. life was much simplier then. i was pretty much a tomboy and always hanging out with the guys, wearing tees and fugly three quarter pants ahaha. we played basketball, ate at ek's house, played ps, and were laughing at foolish stunts all the time. there were alot of inside jokes that i still remember till now, and everytime im reminded of them i cant help but LOL. haha.
 
the other diary kept when i was sec3/4 was boring. i complained about school work and exams all the time, plus the few reflection entries and updates about cliques or section outings. is this what growing up is all about? i couldnt really tell. the diary had an entre chuck of paper ripped off. dont ask me. i dont rmb what happened :X
on a side note, i grumbled about parents and curfews consistently throughout the two diaries. AHA. see, some things never do change.
there wasnt any diary from junior college days. but plenty of cute notebooks/organisers. reminds me of how i keep buying those notebooks cuz they're too cute to resist, and how i enjoy writting down my 'TO DO LIST' and homework for the day, only to end up not following them at all. HAH :D. i also wrote alot of crap. apparently i drafted this list of lefthanded people i know, which was quite cool. i also drew alot. and there was this entire section of pages dedicated to drawings of the 'Gambling Gang' (jc bridge fanatics), Internal Combustion, Safari etc etc. so damn amusing!
then there were many cute postcards from bandsmen before concerts. letters from my wonderful section, touching letters from kaixin, jiahao, andrew ( u idiot!), my mom?!, my cousin, etc etc and birthday cards, cute stickers and anni lettters from ck <3
took a long time to re-read all of them and felt really old. like i have lived for such a long time to accumulate so many precious sentimental items, that preserved fragments of friendship and kinship. in contrast, they also reminded me of unsustained relationships with friends that we thought will be with us through life, people i lost contact with because we have all moved on to our next stage of life.
have i changed? met xinhui at the sojourn concert recently and she couldnt recognise me at all. haha :) hmm. i did do away with the hideous jagged bangs, rebonded and coloured my hair. but that was all i've done that might have changed my image. but i started liking to dress up after getting into a relationship :P
im still very the same character wise. which is most probably a bad thing.
enough of rambling. i ought to finish my tutorials NAAAOOO. tmr is shopping day and early anni ceb with boyf <3 ! |
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| first entry for 2010! |
[Feb. 3rd, 2010|11:45 pm] |
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Cant believe a year passed just like that ! time to update !
Last semester was such a breeze compared to now ): its only the fourth week and im already dreading school. the current semester is heavy on bio modules and im not exactly a fish in water. problem is, im not really even trying to start becoming more fish like or find water. HAHA. makes no sense. anyway, point is i should start working hard soon cuz before i know it, midterms will be here D:
Sojourn 2010 was last Sunday. the concert was a new experience, nothing like rv/nj/sparkswind. it was just different in a way but i cant put a finger to what was special. nevertheless, enjoyed mr oura's conducting and charismatic presence on stage, and perhaps even enjoyed playing much, despite the number of mistakes throughout the concert :P as usual my low blood sugar problem nearly killed me. thanks miki and xiling for the sweets/choc :) ! sorry to miki for polishing off the entire pack of your gummies D:
A week's rest from band made no difference in my academic productivity. perhaps now im facebooking even more than usual. SLACKER ME :D tight schedules make me more disciplined i guess. cant wait for band to resume! i feel weird without band pracs. as if im too free. HA. must practise hard for the Satoshi concert. must make some form of breakthrough. cant always stay at my pathetic flute playing standard ): CUI !
cny is coming and this makes me think of my bengawan solo job stint last year. nowadays when i walk past BS stores or new year goody booths i'll try to look if those staff are there. but so far no luck. really miss those jokers and fun times. this reminds me that i better get a job before my bank account depletes to zero.
YAY meeting boyf on sunday <3 ! and shopping too heehee. time please pass quickly just for these 3 days ahahaha.
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| here to shovel thru the dust |
[Oct. 3rd, 2009|02:06 am] |
yea i know my blog has been deserted for quite awhile. blogspot and livejournal make no difference to me in terms of motivation to blog.
SO. the whole uni life experience has pretty much been a roller-coaster ride with ALOT ALOT ALOT of mini loops. I have yet to experience big loops, but they are lurking in the near future. To put it simply, life hasnt been peaceful these days folks. Just when you thought orientation camp being such a blast (:D) would mean a great new start to your uni life, it's merely the sugar coating on the awful medicine.
But still, thank god for FOC, otherwise i wouldnt have the chance to meet the Astron peeps who make uni bearable. Ven, SY and Joc! They keep me sane and cheerful :)
Add/drop period, tutorials, lab reports, QUIZZES in the NEAR NEAR future, german CA (!!!), tuition grant (!!! !!!), all these menacing stuff comes just when u thought u have settled down and can relax a little. WHOOSH. rollercoaster loop!
Alrite, i know im noisy ranting like this. This is what happens when a creature of routine is positioned in an environment of constant change and endless mugging. I should just get used to it and not be a brat.
There's no motivation for school, perhaps other than band. Mr Oura is an awesome conductor and im learning loads in ntu band. My section mates are all damn zai, much to learn from them as well!
What I look forward to are: Lunch break, home and Sunday out with boyf. I realised im a full-fledged brat at home or with my boy. Which is kind of bad. When im really stressed out or burnt out, its my family or CK that i rant to. When im feeling crabby or irritated, i have the tendency to flare at them as well ): Even though they can be understanding and willing to provide that comfort, I think i should start being nicer to them and find other outlets to rant my frustrations. AHA. time to blast the flute. Okay. not at 2.32 AM.
It is the end of recess week and I've managed to study only 8/12 lecture notes, none of german, none memorized, none practised. :D
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| today's bugisday! |
[Jul. 12th, 2009|07:06 pm] |
YAY bought loads of stuff from bugis today :D am totally loving my loot ! It could have been better if i bought that brown vintage looking briefcase bag D: Or that cropped blazer. Not enough moolahs D: Anyway I really have to start saving up for uni ! My pathetic bank account wont survive for long.
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| bye paula |
[Jul. 10th, 2009|12:58 pm] |
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Okay this is my first time trying out lj so if i suck please just close one eye. or both.
This post is mostly dedicated to an abandoned golden retriever that my colleague Michael found loitering outside our clinic. She was lovingly (or perhaps jokingly) named Paula, after Paula Abdul. She, by the way, do not resemble the American Idol judge at the least.
And yes i fell in love with her immediately. Not that im gay but she was such a sweet dog <3 ! She's ultra friendly and tries to jump and hug everyone she sees. She's gonna be adopted today! Hard to say goodbye..
( Paula&Me ) |
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